For many years i experienced yearning and jealousy
these were the times of my life where i was constantly unsure of myself
trying to please others to feel a sense of worth
i was often filled to the eyeballs with that toxic mix of yearning and jealousy - wanting to be where i saw others standing
longing for what they possessed
or what i imagined they possessed
that yearning and jealousy poisoned me, stultified me, paralysed me.
I inadvertantly found that by taking homeopathically tiny steps in the direction of the yearning i became stronger
with each step more able to step again
and again
and now i find that i seldom feel filled with those bitter juices
and i see that all yearning and jealousy are are signposts to my heart's desires that are dirtied and obscured by lack of self worth, self confidence, vision.
