after 3 tough weeks for me i see my family taking the strain
even though i do most of my running to and from the hospital and dealing with all that needs to be dealt with when they are away at school and work
they are still feeling it
i think i am the vessel of the energy for the family
if my reserves are low, if i am depleted, if i am feeling called far outside myself
they notice
It is not conscious
they are not able to tie the things they are feeling with the strain i am taking but it is certainly there
when i am up they are more resiliant
when i am empty they are more likely to feel abraided, distressed - mostly in an formless kind of way
but it is no less real...
so more than for survival
more than for my soul
i need to plant me feet firmly on the ground, reach into the well that feeds me - creativity, connection to spirit, my beautiful surroundings and i need to drink deeply.....
for their sakes as well as mine
