Friday, December 31, 2010


it takes committment for me to grow

it takes focussed effort

i can't just flit from one thing to another

as filled with tempting baubles as the internet is

i committ to my creativity

i committ to practising every day

i committ to the juiciest deepest part of myself that has stamped her foot and said enough

i will feed her with the joy that comes from making things that come from my heart - not imitations of the work i admire in others

but my work
my soul
my connection to God, Goddess, All That Is

right there in front of me on the page, canvas, peice of silver

and if in that process other's are moved or touched i am blessed

but selfishly

and gloriously this is a committment to me

Thursday, December 30, 2010

a catch up post reverb10

Author: Brené Brown
The Gifts of Imperfection: Let Go of Who You Think You're Supposed to Be and Embrace Who You Are
Prompt: Ordinary joy. Our most profound joy is often experienced during ordinary moments. What was one of your most joyful ordinary moments this year?
i think the time i came into my work space and found a note from my daughter telling me she loved me....

my heart cracked wide open...

Author: Kathryn Fitzmaurice
The Year the Swallows Came Early

Prompt: Defining moment. Describe a defining moment or series of events that has affected your life this year.

i guess having the guts to go to the market with my silver work defined my year- the courage to stand behind my work, to say i made this - to put myself out there - to back myself.... that was the defining moment....

my BIG Fearless Tribal painting - that took courage too but i took that step in a warm supportive community....

to step out into my own town and say look at what i do - that was huge...

Wednesday, December 29, 2010

reverb10 what do i most want to achieve in 2011.

Author: Tara Sophia Mohr
The Women's Seder Sourcebook: Rituals & Readings for Use at the Passover Seder

Prompt: Achieve. What’s the thing you most want to achieve next year? How do you imagine you’ll feel when you get it? Free? Happy? Complete? Blissful? Write that feeling down. Then, brainstorm 10 things you can do, or 10 new thoughts you can think, in order to experience that feeling today.

i most want to travel and see my friends in the US.

I imagine i will feel opened up and happy all at once.

In order to feel that now i can:
1. create everyday
2. do things that require creative courage.
3. treat myself to things that feel indulgent but right.
4. "i deserve great things" can be my new affirmation.
5. i can see each thing i sell as an affirmation that that dream is achievable
6. i can meditate.
7. i can go to spiritual sites here and connect with being in Sedona.
8. i can do the labyrinth here and think about High Valley.
9. i can own being an artist.
10. i can affirm my right to be a woman who can have adventures away from my family.

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

reverb10 food

here is me with my cake and candles and my Queen Jane card, in my kitchen April 2010

Author: Elise Marie Collins
An A-Z Guide to Healing Foods: A Shopper's Reference

Prompt: Soul food. What did you eat this year that you will never forget? What went into your mouth & touched your soul?

the food that touched my soul this year was the delicious tea party my friends had for me - cakes and yum galore - but what was special was that the food was made with love - they thought about what i might like, they cooked especially for me, we drank tea out of my Grandma's Royal Doulton teaset...

and i can still taste that with my cells

reverb10 photo of me...

it says "Perfect is BORING. It is our blemishes that make us beauty-full" taken by my daughter Willow.

Author: Tracey Clark
Expressive Photography: The Shutter Sisters' Guide to Shooting from the Heart

Prompt: Photo - a present to yourself. Sift through all the photos of you from the past year. Choose one that best captures you; either who you are, or who you strive to be. Find the shot of you that is worth a thousand words. Share the image, who shot it, where, and what it best reveals about you.


i chose this photo because i look how i mostly look - i look a bit scruffy, my beautiful and much loved hair is pulled up out of the way... i am in my messy work room - i am participating in an online movement - Brene Brown's imperfection movement, i am showing off my creative work...i am giving art journaling a go, i am reaching out to kindred souls across the universe and i am making a statement that makes me feel more of who i am...

that characterises this whole year - moving into my own space, creative work, sharing, reaching out, scruffy....

Monday, December 27, 2010

new name and trusting i will be ok REVERB10

Becca Wilcott
Truly, Madly, Deadly: The Unofficial True Blood Companion

Prompt: New name. Let's meet again, for the first time. If you could introduce yourself to strangers by another name for just one day, what would it be and why?

I would introduce myself as Moana because it means ocean in Maori. I am deeply connected to the sea and to Aotearoa.

I am from Celtic bloodlines and feel pain about being connected to this land by emotion alone… my whenua (placenta) is not buried somewhere here, nourishing the earth I love so much. My turangawaewae (place to stand) is not acknowledged anywhere and yet my feet feel greeted by parts of this earth so I know that we are family. My Tipuna (ancestors) come from a cold and gentle country miles and miles away, connected by the ocean. Some were born here but I will never be Tangata Whenua (people of the land)

And often I wish I was.

I have claimed Maori heritage when strangers have been racist in the past – mostly to shut them up. But my heart wishes I did have a right to claim that status.

But I don’t.

So maybe I could be Maeve instead. Celtic warrior Goddess heroine of my heart – whose traditions mirror those in Maoritanga that I feel so drawn to and whose hand I hold when I need courage.

Or maybe I could be Moana Maeve.

Yep that works

Author: Kate Inglis
The Dead Crew

Prompt: Everything's OK. What was the best moment that could serve as proof that everything is going to be alright? And how will you incorporate that discovery into the year ahead?

When I thought Colin might die and I took matters into my own hands, when I showed courage, called in favours unashamedly and he didn’t die.

When I wasn’t sure if my work was good enough but I did the market anyway and I sold stuff.

When I put myself out there and it didn’t work and still it was ok

And then something better came along….

All of these things have lead me to trust that all is well. That kind of deep feeling that can wobble a bit from time to time but is rooted in the deepest part of me and is like part of who i am.

Every day I know I am in the care of a benevolent universe that has good things in store for me… that has love and wonder for me…

I know all is well.


Friday, December 24, 2010

reverb 10 travel

Tara Hunt
The Whuffie Factor: Using the Power of Social Networks to Build Your Business

Prompt: Travel. How did you travel in 2010? How and/or where would you like to travel next year?

well i didn't travel as much as i would like around this planet...

unless of course you count the internet

which actually i do. because of the truth of the connections i find and how people from the other side of the planet have swelled my heart in a truely life changing way.

i have travelled internally - towards my richer truer self.

that has been my travel this year - into my creativity, into my courage.

and next year HOLY MOLY

I want to be in Sedona for the BIG girls' get together... i want to be in South Africa, and see table mountain and Daryl's face again. I want to walk into Dani's shop and see her face. I want to go to High Valley and sing with Elizabeth.

that is where i want to travel in 2011.

Thursday, December 23, 2010

reverb 10 from my older wiser self

Author: Jenny Blake
Life After College: The Complete Guide to Getting What You Want
Prompt: Future self. Imagine yourself five years from now. What advice would you give your current self for the year ahead? (Bonus: Write a note to yourself 10 years ago. What would you tell your younger self?)

Well honey

You are embarking on 2011 and i have already been there - i won't tell you what happens because i know you love surprises..

there will be some

but all i want you to know is that you have the tools, the equipment, the mettle to meet them... surprises and all

enjoy your skin - you think you are wrinkly now - ha!
enjoy your girls - they are now in high school and all the attendant joys will make you look on those days - swimming in their undies in the river, coming for cuddles in the bed early every morning seem like an idyll...
enjoy the small things that swell your heart with gratitude - they are your friends and will always be with you

you are loved and guided safely my dear

love Jane
ps stick with the clevedge pledge ok?

Wednesday, December 22, 2010

reverb10 avoidance

Author: Jake Nickell
The Threadless Book
Prompt: Beyond avoidance. What should you have done this year but didn't because you were too scared, worried, unsure, busy or otherwise deterred from doing? (Bonus: Will you do it?)

i think all i should have done but didn't was stand up for myself.

I seemingly let shit slide that in retrospect i could have dealt with in a more self respecting manner.

i get scared about what the person i need to talk to would think, how they might get hurt, and most sadly whether i even have the right to say when something offends me.

i will speak up for myself instead of letting that need to honour myself and my feelings leak out in less than gracious ways.

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

reverb 10 trying stuff AND healing

Author: Kaileen Elise

Prompt: Try. What do you want to try next year? Is there something you wanted to try in 2010? What happened when you did / didn't go for it?

next year i want to try to do more markets with my silver, maybe sell them in some shops

next year i want to do Mystele's work... it speaks to me so richly and it feels like it is waiting for me

next year i want to dive into deep - completely committed and wholy present to it

i don't think there was really anything i wanted to try in 2010 that i didn't - of course i would've loved to have travelled - pretty much anywhere but particularly to South Africa

so if the chance came up in 2011 that would be grand

but the things i wanted to try and did were BIG and THE TRIBE and they have been life changingly amazing - i have grown, i have experimented, i have felt safe and i have been amazed - DAMN FINE OUTCOME ALL ROUND REALLY!!!

i also wanted to do a market with my silver work and that felt TRIUMPHANT!

Author: Leoni Allan
2011 Creating Your Goddess Year

Prompt: Healing. What healed you this year? Was it sudden, or a drip-by-drip evolution? How would you like to be healed in 2011?


The things i tried, that were the whispers of my heart - they healed me

i moved closer to my truest self, my heart's yearnings and that made me feel more myself and less inadequate trying to fit into some other person's mould of how life should be..

of course i can never be anything other than who i am

and i feel like i took a big step closer to me this year

and that is the ultimate healing

(i can hear my heavenly helpers cheering as i say this - and wiping their brows a bit - Yes guys, i have finally got it!)

and at the core of this healing is love

if i love myself and my dreams i am happier and more full of love, which i can share and spread around with glee because there is always more being generated if i am filling my life with love by following my hearts desires

it is the elixer of life

Monday, December 20, 2010

reverb 10: what have you learned this year

this is me and Willow making my dream of selling my silver work come true on Saturday - it took a lot of courage but it was bloody marvellous!

Tara Weaver
The Butcher and the Vegetarian

Prompt: Lesson learned. What was the best thing you learned about yourself this past year? And how will you apply that lesson going forward?

what i learned was that courage is the key

the key ingredient in the recipie to manifest my dreams ,
as far as i have learned in 2010,
is courage

i need to stand up for myself and do whatever it takes to take the step towards my dreams

opportunities are swirling around for everyone to grab

but believing you deserve them

or having the courage to stick out your hands
grab them tightly and pull them into your heart
and grow

that is another story

you may need a sword
to cut the ties of negativity.

you may need a sheild
to deflect the fear.

you may need a cloak
to help you slip past the gate keepers.

you may need a trusty steed
to take you past obstacles.

Whatever form courage takes
(and often for me it is having a cry and being shakey and then just getting on and doing it imperfectly)

2010 has been the year that i have been given the great gift of knowledge that all that is required is courage.

Sunday, December 19, 2010

reverb10 friend prompt

Prompt: Friendship. How has a friend changed you or your perspective on the world this year? Was this change gradual, or a sudden burst?

my last post mentioned this but i want to celebrate Anna - even though she never comes here i want to celebrate the difference she has made in my life

i have always loved words (not that you'd know the way i mangle grammar and punctuation here - it would damage her to read the way i write)

i love how they each have a story, how they are carriers of their own energy

but i learned pretty early on that wheelbarrow words made me seem like a snob, like i was trying to be too clever

i swear i wasn't - there are just sometimes where big words are the ones to use and nothing else will do

well i learned to make do

i also learned not to make puns or stupid jokes because i would be sniggering away very amused with myself and see the person i was conversing with look at me with the expression of "there is now a big sticky boogey hanging out of your nose" (and there wasn't, i have actually been out to the mirror to look)

Anna is the one who has healed all that.

She was an English scholar at Oxford. She loves words, the more wheelbarrow the better for her.

She loves stupid puns.

and when we are together we laugh

like our pelvic floors have nothing better to think of

i feel more whole because i don't have to hide two things that i find so damned nourishing and beautiful

she is a gift to me in many many ways

we are so friggin different and yet we love each other

Friday, December 17, 2010

reverb10: 5 minutes

this is from one of the nicest meals you had - homegrown artichokes with mayo and balsamic YUM!!!

By Patty Digh.

Prompt: 5 minutes. Imagine you will completely lose your memory of 2010 in five minutes. Set an alarm for five minutes and capture the things you most want to remember about 2010.

2010 has been a year of congruence

like the word you chose with your SARK forum friends

you have become more of the woman on the outside that you are on the inside

you are learning so much about painting and courage with trying new things - remember the more you risk the more you gain - Brett's course was amazing

The Big/Tribe journey you took with Connie and all the other tribal sisters you met there has been awesome - you have learned to paint with your heart and when you do the universe comes to meet you in the most amazing ways

remember the cuddles from your girls, their struggles with growing up and their feirce believe in all their gut wrenching beauty that you just say that because you are their Mum - this means that even though they are feeling unsure of themselves they can be sure of you

remember the fun you have had with Anna and how the laughter made you grow

there were things that made you shrink inside but again the answer to them was courage - the courage to face your dreams, the courage to see yourself as worthy

your word for 2011 is courage

and you can remember you are loved

Thursday, December 16, 2010

reverb10 Appreciate

my splendid and much loved hill

Author: Victoria Klein
27 Things to Know About Yoga

Prompt: Appreciate. What's the one thing you have come to appreciate most in the past year? How do you express gratitude for it?

this year i have continued to appreciate that i live in paradise... i express that by constant gratitude for the green out my window, the birds i can hear, and boring my internet friends silly by going on about it.

the thing i have come to appreciate most is that life requires courage.

That is, if i am to live the life of my dreams i need to risk failure.

i need to be free from the need to be right.

i need listen to my intuition and my heart.

i need to hear my deepest longings as a call from the divine and that all the divine asks from me is to take a big breath

and leap

and i will always land safely (there may be a few bruises and scrapes but i always heal too)

i give thanks for this by being more and more courageous

by being more and more willing to leap

and more and more adept at landing in the middle of wonderful.

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

reverb10 aspirations and action

my things all bagged up and hoping to find new homes!

Author: Scott Belsky
Making Ideas Happen

Prompt: Action. When it comes to aspirations, its not about ideas. It's about making ideas happen. What's your next step?

ok my next step happens on saturday

starting at 5 am

i am having my first ever stall at the artisan's market

i am selling silver and some little canvases

i will have a painting there

it feels huge

it feels like my heart is for sale

i want so much to be a creative person who is sustained in more ways than one by my creative life

this is really putting my big girl undies on!

reverb10 body prompt

Author: Patrick Reynolds
The Knowledge Workers Survival Guide

Prompt: Body integration. This year, when did you feel the most integrated with your body? Did you have a moment where there wasn't mind and body, but simply a cohesive YOU, alive and present?

This is going to sound less yoga/yoda/mind body spirit as one than i would have liked ...

the vision of me as some toned physical and spiritual athlete who has completed some mountainous task is something i toy with from time to time

and then discard when i find how arduous it is to run to the bus if i am late to meet the girls

so the moment when i didn't have seperate mind and body me - when i was cohesive me, alive and present was when i was really sick with the flu

in the first couple of days i was so achey that walking was barely possible and i groaned involuntarily, i couldn't eat and i could barely drink

simon thought he would have to take me to hospital and Eila kept coming in, with a worried face and giving me little kisses on the head

i was really sick

i was totally aware of every part of my body - they all hurt so damned much, i was scared, i was glad i was alive...

my mind helped me - it said things like "Now you are one minute closer to being better" at regular intervals...

it said "nothing else matters now, just rest"

occaisionally it said "you have things to do" but then my body said "Ahem, HULLO?? WE ARE REALLY FU*KIN SICK HERE"

and then it shut up again..

but i was mind/body/spirit.


and wanting to be healthy with everything in me....

not sexy but true.

Monday, December 13, 2010

reverb10 prompt from the 10th

Prompt: 11 Things. What are 11 things your life doesn't need in 2011? How will you go about eliminating them? How will getting rid of these 11 things change your life?
Author: Sam Davidson

1. yelling. i will be happier i will teach my girls better things i will not feel corroded.

2. talking meanly to myself. see above

3. caffeine. see above

4. doing things that make me clench my buttocks. see above.

5. not listening to my intuition. see above.

6. leaving my camera at home. i love taking photos. i am proud to see them here.

7. thinking my creative dreams are out of reach and only possible for someone more talented/courageous/deserving/gutsy/clever than me Please refer back to 1-5 although add this means i will be living the life of my heart's calling.

8. waiting for others to make me feel good. because this is my job. no one elses.

9. not meditating see 7 above - plus i know all the answers are there.

10. not showing my clevage while i still have it i want to flaunt it.

11. not walking on the beach every week see 9 above.

the answers are all the same - to have a better life i need to let go of old hiding/witholding habits... the more i do the things that bring me joy the more life is celebrating with me

freakin awesome

reverb10 Suzannah Conway's prompt

my brave goddess self from BIG

Prompt: Wisdom. What was the wisest decision you made this year, and how did it play out? (please note i have a big girly crush on Suzannah Conway - she is brave and alive and creative and hormonal and funny and kind)

The wisest decision i made in 2010 wasn't a single epiphany like "I am going to leave my husband/run a marathon/be a buddhist nun"... although all of those flit through my mind from time to time

my decision was more like a leak of wonderful soaking into my pores

pores that were thirsty (almost to death)

pores that a lot of other things had opened sorrow, self doubt, emptiness, exploration, courage...

and the moisturiser that has cured my souls wrinkles is creativity

It began by discovering how much i wanted to do an art course when i did abc's 100 creative goals list.

So i (after much prevaricating and difficulty in stepping out and saying i wanted to spend hard earned money on something as ephemeral as an art course) bravely chose to do an art course on-line.

i did a Suzi Blu course - the Goddess and the Poet - how could i not do a course named that right? i learned much and explored a lot but mostly found how absorbing and addictive a pencil and paper and mark making can be....

and then i took another - not so good this time... i wanted to explore art that was fermenting in my gut not reproducing a facsimile of other's art...

then God pointed me towards Connie Hozvicka and the needle on my soul's compass went "TWANG"

it shivered

and stopped pointing straight at her

she asked for a bold committment to ourselves and to following up this process and because i am a good girl and i do what i am told

i made that committment

and of all the things i have done this year this has contributed, more than one other single thing, to the sense of increasing wholeness i am experiencing

i am learning to embrace mistakes, be alive to possibility, be curious, be less attatched to outcome, to pleasing others

and i get to fiddle away in my workspace and feel alive as often as i make time for it

and that is the single most wonderful thing i have done for myself in years

reverb10 - question for the 9th

not many people in this photo right???

Prompt: Party. What social gathering rocked your socks off in 2010? Describe the people, music, food, drink, clothes, shenanigans.the social gathering that rocked my socks of may make me sound sadder and more middle aged than i feel... as a young woman exchange student i could have had a good show at the small talk chat friendly olympics... i could engage anyone, loved social events.. as a 45 year old i now am only just returning from a place where i felt i had nothing to offer, was so ashamed of my self and my inadequacies that i couldn't find social gatherings anything but terrifying opportunities to make a dick of myself...

but it changes when i get together with my friend Anna

maybe a chat in the car park

maybe a sneaky lunch

maybe just talking under a tree while the children swam

but being with her makes me laugh

i feel shiny

and that makes me feel my socks go whoosh

when my friends and i who met through the homebirth group get together and one of us makes a plan to guide the group in some way my socks are rocked - we got together and did something i read about and was deeply moved by on Jen Gray's blog....we henna painted words of affirmation - words we wanted to be true about, words that captured our deepest longings and wore them on our skin... miracles happened because of that day - E, after writing about love over her heart, found love, a lump that M had, which she was ashamed of and which had been there since childhood disappeared within weeks of writing self love on it...

and the other social gatherings that have rocked my socks have been on the internet - the tribe and our hilarious biweekly chat sessions, the tribe work-room where we share and grow, the SARKFORUM where my sisters live, the friends i have made blogging... you have all seen something worthwhile in me - have helped me rebuild my social maybe, just maybe, i might do something social in 2011

Friday, December 10, 2010

REVERB10 Karen Walrond's prompt

Eila took this photo because she loved the colours in my hair...

Author: Karen Walrond
The Beauty of Different

Prompt: Beautifully different. Think about what makes you different and what you do that lights people up. Reflect on all the things that make you different - you'll find they're what make you beautiful.

What makes me different?

i think if i had to sum it up i would say more.

i think more, cry more, worry more, dream more, hope more, change more, care more, am grey more

i shake more, feel more, wonder more, laugh more, aging more,

i am more colourful, more troublesome

more solitary,

more connected,

more passionate,

more irritating,

more visionary,

more frightened....

maybe we all feel like that but i often, when i look at the people i see everyday, the people who i chat to at school, the people i greet at the supermarket...

i just seem more - that is not arrogant or vain and in fact i have been criticsed all my life for being too much (which confusingly also makes me not enough)

but i love my colour and my grey hair, i love my easy rise to tears and laughter, i love my passionate fire which gets things done and makes me feel close to God Goddess all that is...

more is good

Thursday, December 9, 2010


this from Calli Harris

Prompt: Community. Where have you discovered community, online or otherwise, in 2010? What community would you like to join, create or more deeply connect with in 2011?

Community...something more precious to me than i can say...

i have a community outside of my cyberlife who has been with me for years, whom i met through the homebirth movement... women who parent in a similar way to me but whose hearts are open and spirits are thirsty for the same water as mine... we have drifted apart a little - they continue to walk the hills and valleys of raising small children... i am striving to rediscover myself...

i have community with my friend Anna which has developed over this year - she is erudite, kind, generous and i laugh with her until my pelvic floors are threatened or breached - it fills me up more than i can say.

i have been part of the sark forum for a few years and like any living thing it is constantly changing - i have met some sisters of my heart there (and you know who you are xxx)

i have dipped my toe in the twitter community - it informs me, makes me laugh and sucks all my time if i am not careful... i feel a bit like the girl in the no name jeans when everyone else is in levis but still i like the sense of fun and community i find there

i have drifted from blog to blog and feel a strong kinship to some of my favourite authors.. The incomparable Dani Sutcliffe (she is the drink of water my cells rehydrate with), Jen Gray, Jen Lee, Connie (this is not an exhaustive list - i am trying to get the girls to school sorry )... some of them know that i love them, some of them don't but they are precious to me ....

and of course my friends from BIG and the Tribe- i can't say how having that bunch of spunky, courageous, inquisitive, art-hearted women have plumped up my soul in a way that i see as miraculous... i have been priviledged to walk this far with them - AND with that workiing work of art, Connie at the helm it is an adventure i wouldn't miss for the world... ROLL ON DEEP

For a loner, for someone who likes solitude, someone who can't think of anything more happy making than a walk by myself on the beach, a life crowded with these people seems incongruous on paper

but bloody marvellous in real life

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

thoughts for the new year

i am beginning to consider2011

(thanks in large part to reverb10) what i would like to draw to me

what i would like to release

and i think i would like to release the need to be seen

it interferes with my honest expression of my self into the world

i consider what others will think constantly

i am unable to allow my expression to be satisfying unless it is lauded outside of me

i am unable to let my offering be complete and satisfactory just as they are, without acclaim or praise

i want to be able to speak my truth and have it be enough

all on its own.

the need to be seen is about not feeling worthy enough inside myself to provide validation for myself

is about not believing in my truth enough to have it rest in its own perfection without the approval of others

it is time for this to die now...

it is time to be free

reverb10 what is the last thing you made

Author: Gretchen Rubin
The Happiness Project

Prompt: Make. What was the last thing you made? What materials did you use? Is there something you want to make, but you need to clear some time for it?

the last thing i made was this scooby doo tshirt for my nephew Tom for Christmas - i used a cheap cotton tshirt, a picture off the internet, fabric paints, brushes, and my clever hands and eyes

i think he'll like it.

it makes me realise that i have become a woman who makes things all the time

and i like that

Monday, December 6, 2010

REVERB10 - What did you let go of this year

i let go of the strings that were tying me to the sorrow that being an artist belonged to someone else

to someone cleverer
to someone talented
to someone experienced
to someone braver
to someone gifted
to someone in the right community

to someone else

and fuck it
i am so glad i took hold of the joy that if i step forward with courage i can be an artist too

Sunday, December 5, 2010

rever10 - a sense of wonder

"What did i do to cultivate a sense of wonder"

i open my eyes and i look

i see green grass and know it's growing
i see trees and know that they are taking in my waste breath and making new breath for me
i see the ceaseless sea
i see the infinity of the sky
and the stars
i see my hands moving and things growing
i think about my liver and my lungs and my pancreas and my heart- the miracle of design that means i get to move about and sustain my life and grow new cells - all without thinking or worrying or learning or applying myself - it just is
i think about my girls growing, puberty entering my eldest's body, learnings that happen everyday
i think about the unconcious and dreams and synchronicity
i think about the internet and talking to you through time and space and having my heart changed by you through time and space

this life, this planet, all of it

it is wonder

Saturday, December 4, 2010

reverb10 - the time i felt most alive this year

the times i felt most alive were when i was creating something





taking them all in my hands and my heart and placing them,

sometimes with care, sometimes with hope, often with courage

out there for the world to see.

yes i admit the being seen helped me to feel alive too,

but the act of making something,

having that something appear from work that came through me,

well that never fails to make me feel plugged in

makes me feel alive

Friday, December 3, 2010

REVERB10 - DAY 1 and 2 :-)

i am sometimes a bit of a slow starter

like catching onto the idea that i am a creative being (at age 45)

but it is the starting that counts

and i see the cool kids are doing this project called REVERB10

and having words for the year has been a powerful force for change in my life

- 2 years ago my word was adventure - that year i went to Borneo

this year my word has been congruence - and i am much more on the outside what i feel on the inside...

so the prompt for day 1 of reverb10 is

December 1 One Word.
Encapsulate the year 2010 in one word. Explain why you’re choosing that word. Now, imagine it’s one year from today, what would you like the word to be that captures 2011 for you?
(Author: Gwen Bell)

2010 in one word is shift - i have shifted more into the life i desire, i have shifted into my powerful truth

i see (pottymouth that i am) that that word contains shit and f - i think i have told a lot of shit to f off in my life and that seems appropriate too!

one year from today - 2011 Decemeber - i am sitting at my computer, the girls should be getting ready for school, am i am looking outside at green ... and i see this years word is gratitude

i know that living in deep gratitude for the treasure of life, family, abundance, this beautiful planet allows me to experience more of the magic of synchronicity, the calling of my deeper purpose, love and wonder to flow in

who wouldn't want more of that.....

day 2's prompt is
December 2 Writing.
What do you do each day that doesn’t contribute to your writing — and can you eliminate it?
(Author: Leo Babauta)

i don't write everyday because i don't make space for journaling... i could make space but then it becomes one more thing on the list of things to do -

i like the way this blog is there for me when i want to express something i have been chewing over in my heart...

so i think that is fine...

Thursday, December 2, 2010


i am becoming the woman i want to know

the woman who values truth

the woman who drinks in beauty everywhere - puddles, piles of sticks, sadness, the sky

the woman who gives and receives

the woman who isn't afraid to reveal

the woman who feels God at her shoulder - not admonishing, not vengeful, but the God who is love

the woman who sees creativity as an expression of that love and practises it everyday - sometimes just in the way she puts on her clothes or bluffs that her messy unbrushed hair is supposed to look like that...

the woman who is has friends who are true and rich of spirit (and if you are here reading this, know you are counted in this)

the woman who is learning what shit is hers and what shit is others

the woman who delights in a good swearword

the woman who feels silly as something she has earned

the woman who claims her right to stand on this beautiful, confounding, magnificent, miracle-filled planet and breathe deeply

and walk on