i am beginning to consider2011
(thanks in large part to reverb10) what i would like to draw to me
what i would like to release
and i think i would like to release the need to be seen
it interferes with my honest expression of my self into the world
i consider what others will think constantly
i am unable to allow my expression to be satisfying unless it is lauded outside of me
i am unable to let my offering be complete and satisfactory just as they are, without acclaim or praise
i want to be able to speak my truth and have it be enough
all on its own.
the need to be seen is about not feeling worthy enough inside myself to provide validation for myself
is about not believing in my truth enough to have it rest in its own perfection without the approval of others
it is time for this to die now...
it is time to be free
