while i am thinking about measuring...

i realise that while i am measuring i miss out on what is actually happening

for example

while i was reading the girls' reports i realised i was measuring in my head how many other children in the class would have similar results

how much better L would have done

whether L got the same result for that ...

on and on the measuring went in my head until i realised that what i was doing was cheating my girls out of the authentic pride i had in what they achieved

i was cheating myself out of honouring their efforts

and their growth

and their achievements

all this sodding measuring was robbing me of the very things i want to achieve in life

connection

tenderness

love

acceptance

belonging

joy

i feel ashamed to admit these ugly measurings here... but they bubble up from some deep place in me (the hungry hominid wanting their share of the mammoth at the fireside???)

but they are part of me so i will love them and see them

and talk with them next time "I see you measuring, i hear your need but i choose love instead"

Let's see how they like that....

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reverb10 prompt from the 10th

Prompt: 11 Things. What are 11 things your life doesn't need in 2011? How will you go about eliminating them? How will getting rid of these 11 things change your life?
Author: Sam Davidson




1. yelling. i will be happier i will teach my girls better things i will not feel corroded.

2. talking meanly to myself. see above

3. caffeine. see above

4. doing things that make me clench my buttocks. see above.

5. not listening to my intuition. see above.

6. leaving my camera at home. i love taking photos. i am proud to see them here.

7. thinking my creative dreams are out of reach and only possible for someone more talented/courageous/deserving/gutsy/clever than me Please refer back to 1-5 although add this means i will be living the life of my heart's calling.

8. waiting for others to make me feel good. because this is my job. no one elses.

9. not meditating see 7 above - plus i know all the answers are there.

10. not showing my clevage while i still have it i want to flaunt it.

11. not walking on the beach every week see 9 above.


the answers are all the same - to have a better life i need to let go of old hiding/witholding habits... the more i do the things that bring me joy the more life is celebrating with me

freakin awesome

the sound of joy

these to me are the sound of joy

skylarks singing

babies laughing

cats purring

guinea pigs chattering

tui swooping and chortling

a quiet "i love you" next to my ear

things i am certain of

that my life is going to change

that i have the power to make that change whatever i choose

that i am blessed beyond measure

that friends matter

that love is the basis of everything

that growing can be painful but that doesn't make it wrong

that spirit moves in all of us

that when you listen to the whispers of your heart the universe applaudes and gives you little presents

when you are genuine - even if you feel ratshit - you will get through it and whatever you genuinely offer out will be accepted... even if it is just that good ole universe applauding some more

give out what you can - you will always get more back

be engaged with what you do

pretty isn't always good but beautiful (which sometimes might be hidden under wrinkles and grey hair and other tricky hiding places) most certainly is

joy is catchy

fullmoon wishboard

inspired by the lovely jaimie ridler

here is my fullmoon wishboard

i want to strengthen my connection with fun, my family, silliness, adventure, Maeve and my creativity

i am also shining my light on these sucesses in my life....thankyou Brandi and Andrea for the inspiration!!!


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