the more i seem to irritate others
i guess then energy i spend in trying to please others is now going into pleasing myself
but this is difficult for a well trained people pleaser like me to feel easy about ...
i know i don't always manage my new self in the most considerate way
(i should have trainer wheels really)
all this trying out new ways of managing things - new priorities, new thought patterns, new strategies means that so many of my rules have changed that i am almost an entirely different shape
i am often surprised when i look in the mirror that i look so much the same
the things that draw me in are things i cannot easily talk with the others in my life about
like this Jar - i made a concoction with Pixie's help and i have used it in baths in chakra massages i have drunk it i have used it in a painting...
all of which would be so difficult to explain to 99% of the people i see each day
it seems the more i get to know myself the more of a stranger i become to the world around me...
Gorgeous jar.
ReplyDeleteHaving trainer wheels isn't a silly idea.
Something to give you balance, stability and security as you practice being your lovely self.
Welcome to my world.
ReplyDeleteAnd I mean that sincerely.
WELCOME.
Glad to have you here. Care for some tea and cake?
trainer wheels! I love it!!
ReplyDeleteWow - what a challenge, to overcome that people pleasing tendency to focus on being your (brilliant) self, but so worthwhile. As always, what you write has inspired me.
ReplyDeleteI can absolutely relate to your statement, but I believe knowing myself is worth it...I don't feel I am becoming a stranger to the world, just the two-leggeds!... glad to be sharing a lodge with you. Aho.
ReplyDeleteReading that I just feel that you have arrived. At yourself. x
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