i love Brene Brown
(the magnificent midwife to the words on her blog ordinary courage and author of books that i am saving up to buy ...here's a link to her latest post... http://ordinarycourage.com/)
i love her in that way that means i carry a little bit of her in my head and ponder over her words often during my day, but if i ever got to meet her i would look at my shoes (she lives in a cold place so i would be wearing shoes) and blush and say UMMM alot...
i have to say that before i go any further and get told off for bias...
and any of you who have read this blog to any degree know i have a thing or two to say about deserving, about self worth, about being enough....
and this week Brene, to celebrate the release of her new DVD "the hustle for worthiness" she is challenging encouraging us to write about worthiness
about being enough
and i was thinking that enough always has a bad connotation in my life as in
"That's enough " (said in a grumpy exasperated mother/teacher voice - usually in relation to frivolity or noise or general non seriousness)
or "that'll be enough" (which is immediately telling me that i haven't given ample... just that mediocre measure of the minimum)
being enough is never an overflowing, abundant, juicy word...
it is mingy and tight and dry in your mouth...
it is always something to over-reach
something to aim past
as if perfectionism and the drive to give ourselves all ulcers with constantly trying to be more than we are is something to be proud of...
well fuck it
enough is enough
(hee hee had to throw that in there)
i am going to reclaim the word ENOUGH
i am going to follow that honourable tradition of reclaiming sullied words - (think GAY think BLACK)
I am going to wear enough proudly
i might even make a tshirt
right now, if i am enough- then i am worthy... no waiting til i get some magical approval from outside me for my efforts at being more... right now i am enough...
do you hear the doors opening??
do you hear the sphincters unclenching???
do you hear the big sigh from deep within my chest???
(and if you want a tshirt i am seriously thinking about it!)