Prompt: Wisdom. What was the wisest decision you made this year, and how did it play out? (please note i have a big girly crush on Suzannah Conway - she is brave and alive and creative and hormonal and funny and kind)
The wisest decision i made in 2010 wasn't a single epiphany like "I am going to leave my husband/run a marathon/be a buddhist nun"... although all of those flit through my mind from time to time
my decision was more like a leak of wonderful soaking into my pores
pores that were thirsty (almost to death)
pores that a lot of other things had opened sorrow, self doubt, emptiness, exploration, courage...
and the moisturiser that has cured my souls wrinkles is creativity
It began by discovering how much i wanted to do an art course when i did abc's 100 creative goals list.
So i (after much prevaricating and difficulty in stepping out and saying i wanted to spend hard earned money on something as ephemeral as an art course) bravely chose to do an art course on-line.
i did a Suzi Blu course - the Goddess and the Poet - how could i not do a course named that right? i learned much and explored a lot but mostly found how absorbing and addictive a pencil and paper and mark making can be....
and then i took another - not so good this time... i wanted to explore art that was fermenting in my gut not reproducing a facsimile of other's art...
then God pointed me towards Connie Hozvicka and the needle on my soul's compass went "TWANG"
and stopped pointing straight at her
she asked for a bold committment to ourselves and to following up this process and because i am a good girl and i do what i am told
i made that committment
and of all the things i have done this year this has contributed, more than one other single thing, to the sense of increasing wholeness i am experiencing
i am learning to embrace mistakes, be alive to possibility, be curious, be less attatched to outcome, to pleasing others
and i get to fiddle away in my workspace and feel alive as often as i make time for it
and that is the single most wonderful thing i have done for myself in years
The colour of the sky *the ocean * Elizabeth and Maeve * people who reach beyond the ordinary * genuine generosity *good food * watching things grow * the miracle of birth *a woman's power *tenderness in all its forms * the cycle of life * courage * people with a sense of fun * compassion * beautiful jewellery * art that is made from the heart - without a view to the purchaser or the market but made because it has to come *Clarissa Pincola Estes * grace
LIKE SANDS THROUGH THE HOURGLASS THESE ARE MORETHINGSTHATITHINK
i welcome you with warmth and love to the thoughts that grab me .... and the way they come out of my fingers when i make the time in my day as a mother and artist and poodle walker to write them down.....